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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 07:55

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was scared of men, in general

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But it wasn’t much.

And i lived it daily.

She found it foreign!.

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But, we were locked up after school.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Has anyone shared his wife with a friend? How was it?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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I write beautiful poetry .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But ive been too sick for many years..

I’m 26 years old and a married woman. My husband hates my flat chest. What is the permanent solution?

So, i spoilt her more .

Im still living with it.

We all went to grammer schools

Why are some people afraid of monsters?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I will be 64.

I don,t even have a pension.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So whats the point in blame.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Ive learnt so much.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

This is soul school!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I never cut or harmed myself..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

All the time i was locked up.

We were not on the streets..

She married twice! .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I have no regrets .

She loved him until the end.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He knew the spot.

Comes on , in middle age.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I waited trembling.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I said to her

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Why did i forgive my father ?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

What did i know ?

One cannot live in the past .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was very sick at this time too.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

When she asked me how she looked .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was seconnd youngest,

She was in good health!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I couldn’t, believe it.

I think the readers, may guess!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was 9 years of age.

She wouldn,t have been !

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Would this be the day?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He resisted the act ,that day.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My family never makes their pension either.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Who then, do I blame.?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

It was going to be , some day.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My life is so biszare .